in an empirical sense...

You got it mama B! <3 @totalexclusion @edneenyo @dani_venaqui @followtheelobrickroad @chavia_knight #greatfood #full&satisfied (Taken with instagram)

Haven’t seen him in awhile… I love this one :) he’s a good reminder for me to keep it together <3 #adinglove (Taken with instagram)

for a good laugh :D the Pacman one was hella funny… lol

Motivation (just thinking out loud)

I’ve been thinking if motivation through means of negativity is necessarily ok. I mean, some would advise to turn the negative into a positive and thus produces motivation.

For example: you are given a project. You thought that you did your best in completing it but then were told that your best wasn’t good enough. So you’re made to think that you suck at what you do or what you were doing. So in your discouraged state, you feel crappy… or appalled that someone would think this way about something you believe is awesome work. So now my question is, had the situation been a little different, say that it was perfect and everyone liked it. Is it better to be self motivated in which your goal is to be better than the last? Or is it better to be motivated because your sad or angry that you couldn’t live up to an expectation?

In other words, which is better: motivation from negativity or without negativity?

I’ve had more experiences where my motivation came from a negative place. Granted, most of those goals I set from being upset that I didn’t reach an expectation were accomplished, but making it through some shit made me who I am today. I guess I could say that either way gets the job done.

And maybe its just a state of mind… like some would say, turn the negative into a positive. Sometimes that makes a big difference in how we internalize life’s curve balls.

So instead of setting goals because you want to prove someone else wrong or to prove a point to someone else, we should set goals and work towards them to prove to ourselves we can do it or work for our own sake and not someone else’s.

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This has been such a lovely pep talk with you, but probably for me mostly lol… I hope I got you thinking because I sure as fuck got myself thinking lol!

dafuq? you can buy kigu (those full body costume things) here?....want because of reasons

jkimisyellow:

someone buy us a pair. thanks.

WTF i want one… but fuck… shit costs about 63 US dollars… waaaaaaaaah :(

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RIP Sharon Renee Higgins… imy ily I wish I could dance with you once more. And I wish I could be at the celebration being held for you at that studio in Walnut. Just as you are there in spirit, I too will be there in spirit. I’ll take a few shots for us this weekend.

I have mixed feelings about yesterday but overall, it was a pretty damn good day :) HAPPY BERFDAY AGAIN TO MY BEST FRIENDS ERNEST AND KIM!!! I saw 8 faces that i havent seen in what feels like FOREVER!!! So i’m pretty happy about that… maybe thats why i felt so good yesterday… that was my body celebrating the good things that past this past weekend.

Jajajajajaja! @burrito124 (Taken with instagram)

tyleroakley:

gurl imma have to call you back

Me.

oh gawd her face… ROFLMAO but i ain’t gon lie tho… my face would be the exact same way if that walked by me… and then I’d shablam… ROFLMAO

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Connection

Sometimes, I forget how our personal decisions and actions affect other people and their lives. Life, including everyone’s life, around the world connects one way or another and I failed to remember that.

And in more ways than one, in different situations, I’ve paid some kind of price in forgetting this simple fact of life.

I’ve lately come to realize that I don’t have a lot of friends and the ones I do have seem to be living life as if it was better off without me. Not entirely by choice.

And I’ve lately been trying to figure out a career change and how to make it possible. I would hate to turn into a hermit for so long until I find my way. But then again, that kind of thing would be more efficient without all the “distractions.”

I’m feeling the pressures of life again, a big weight on my shoulders the size of a 10 ton anvil.

the thing about life is…

it will always fuckin suck… there is never anything that’s good because whatever you think is good/fun/positive, isn’t for someone else… and because we live in a society where we have to function together, then anything and everything that you do fuckin’ sucks and you always have to censor yourself and your thoughts and confine and restrict yourself from being yourself.

this is just how I feel right now. I’ll probably feel this way tomorrow. At least I know I won’t feel this way forever… lets hope I don’t.

Relapse & Recovery

There have been moments where I feel like I’m relapsing back into old habits or obsessions and it made me paranoid.

I don’t like feeling this way. But its times like that where I really have to beat it into my head that the way the world works in my head wont be as simple in real life. So therefore, I’ve been asking myself lately: “why is that a problem?”

Instead of obsessing all over again, I take steps to ensure that I don’t relapse… and idk if you’d agree with them but it sorta helps me out…

In the event that I need to recover or prevent relapse, I tend to think the worst out of the situation or circumstance. This will then lead me to have an IDGAF attitude, concerning myself with what’s right in front if me and the things that are currently happening in my life. If it’s a habit, i usually beat myself up over it, trying to tell myself to kick the habit or find one that’s more healthy… and if it’s an obsession, I find reason’s to hate the obsession so that I would be turned off to the whole idea of it (if that makes any sense) .

I guess I felt like I was relapsing… when really I just need to strengthen my spirit again. I wonder… without the use of religious methods or methods involving gods of any sort, is there a way for us to strengthen our spirit?

I have a lot of strength and a lot of will power… it’s my resolve that i sometimes have problems with.

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SHAWN DESMAN

unf!!! i remember taking a class and someone used one of his songs before… a throwback… where dis nigga at now?! he needs to come back into my life :3

Done with work :) Had a good time teaching today… I served these kiddies hip hop coach realness today :P tis always a good feeling knowing you’re doing your job right and really teaching these kids how to dance :D (Taken with instagram)